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ARVEL POH
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Oh oh oh! Do you guys know that Kiong & i actually share the SAME SURNAME?!!! O.M.GoddnessGraciousAlamak lah! We are actually one family maybe thousand of years ago leh! Ugh for real?! Haha =)


Btw KUKUMON! You must be slping liao hor?! Sianz!

Went to see the MO in the morning because I'm feeling unwell. Oh btw, Fuck you Medic, why that look? Why the "I-bet-you-are-chao-keng' look? Nabeei cheebye. Because it's a friday & i came early to see the doc doesn't mean I'm chao keng k?! I'm am sick & you are at there, giving me that look.. & what silly questions are you asking? Why don't you just shuddap & do your job quietly?

37.4 or 37.5 degrees. Not high enough to be consider as fever arh? KNN. Higher than normal body temperature means abnormal liao, something is not right with the body, different. That means it's fever k.

Dear Doctor, the course you studied for years never teach you arh? Or you never did pay attention in class? Are you dumb or stupid, or both? Still ask me to go back & do my work. Pfft! Heartless shit. You probably never recieved a lot of Ang Baos this year then in a bad mood right?!! BLAH! I wish you a '37.5 degrees fever-cum-sore throat-cum-cough-cum-flu' for the whole MooMoo year! I'll like to see if by then, will you consider yourself running a fever or not loh~ ^.^

I think i'm gonna be super sick soon. Feeling feverish & the worst sore throat is coming. I can sense it since my ear starts to hurt already. Sianzation.

Oh & i need to go Camp this Saturday morning to attend some carnival thingy. Blah to the max. I'm so not gonna bring my family members or friends coz it's probably gonna be lame. -.-

All AJs should watch 'Queer As Folk' Sweetness k:




Haizzz, so sweet. So loving. I'm getting diabetes just watching this =(

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My dinner for yesterday, 8 slices of Pizzas!! <33> *blush*

I am hungry Domokum! Roar!!!


Oh & before i forgot, see, Danny is so sweet loh, Thank me & called me sexay somemore leh. Oh my LMAO! *blush*

Yes. Just like what Lefay & Danny said, it was probably Kiong who passed his damn viruses to us so we got sick. So evil loh!!! Woah, no wonder he want us to play the games that time where the loser need to drink. So he can pass us his viruses! TSK TSK TSK!

=X

Kidding la whahahaha~! I'm just bored =p

Ang Baos Ang Baos i love Ang Baos! <3 Went to just 2 relative's house for visiting & collected like 8 Angbaos since most of the families turned up at the same place haha. Save my time~!

Met Puer & gang in the evening for movies.

Coffee Beans (Thanks Benjamin for the coupons):



See Donan's red hair? HUAT ARH! ^.^ He dyed it himself tho. Power sia. Must praise a bit (since he provided free movie tickets =p)



Puer & moi


'Jia you xi shi' is nice. Should go watch k~ Can't wait till this coming Sat to watch 'Da xi shi' with Ade & gang.


After that rush to take the last train to meet Kukumon. Went to Cassandra? house & stayed over. Was hungry at around the middle of the night so we called Macdonalds to order breakfast. The whole conversation was damn funny la LMAOOO!

Kuku's friend: Hello?

Operator: Can i take your order?

KuKu's friend: Oh yes. I just woke up, so I wanna say- *start singing BLUE song* 'You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night, you make me wanna hold you till the morning light..~'

Operator: HUH?! May i have your name & tel no?

KuKu's friend: Yes. My name is Bluez. B-L-U-E-Z

Operator: Sorry? It's noisy over there, i can't heard.

Kuku's friend: B-L-U-E-Z. I am bluez, the one who sang just now *& she starts singing again*


LAUGH MY FUCKING ASS OFF!!! Classic. We laughed till CMI k.

The operator just hang up after that nonsense. HAHA. I'm lovin' it!

New Year, New start. No more excuses for me to say: "Ehh, only 2009 ma, not the Chinese 2009 yet" etc shit because the OX Year just arrived.

So, from now till Valentine Day, (Did i tell you guys how much i hate this day?) for those who did not chat with me on MSN will not be added on my new MSN account. (Yes, finally gonna change acc~!)

I don't care whether you are a friend, ex-bfs, ons, 2ns or watever, i will not add. If you are reading this & you are thinking, "Fine watever loh, i don't care~" Then yea, I don't care too because you can't be bothered to care/chat anyway. *shrugs* And if you didn't happen to read this, then too bad loh. You guys should know i update almost everything over here. So if you care enough, you will probably drop by here for a visit & read this.

lalala tata~!

Reunion dinner is kinda unnecessary in my opinion, so i skip it! Hah~ Watever lah, call me watever names you all want, i don't care =p The awkward feeling of mingling with relatives.. EWWW. *Prepares myself for tmr's meet-the-relatives mayhem*

Relatives: Where is your girlfriend?

Me: Huh?

Relatives: Girlfriend la!

Me: Oh.. Boyfriend huh.

Relatives: ... Boyfriend??! *Puzzled look*

Me: Yea boyfriend. No boyfriend yet leh. Why? You all wanna intro some hunks for me arh? *blush*

Relatives: o_O!! *Silence.. while my dad went into a frenzy*


Muhahahaha!

If that really happens.. I dunno. I might not make it till next year >.<>


Anyway, Happy Niu Year bitches! ^.^



Made a Victoria sig:



Nice hor! =P

Decided to stay home today afterall.

Sorry Daniel. I'm too tired this morning >.< & Shawn, i hate to go shopping centres, & it's so last min. I don't have '心里准备' to face crowds LOL. Sorry arh.. Next time k?


& why do i keep going clubbing when i actually dislike it? I should stop going down so often from now on.

Finally ate 'Orh Jian' for supper with Meix2 & Ade. ^.^ & drank the 'long-time-no-drink' QOO too. Haha.

Tmr MIGHT be meeting Daniel for breakfast, afternoon MIGHT meet Shawn to go shopping. (Stupid Shawn msg me liao then M.I.A. LIDAT HOW TO CONFIRM?!!) -.- Or i might just stay home & sleep the whole day because stupid Kuku-boy keep calling me earlier & ask me to wake up to pee. Nabeei you -.- I slept only 4 hrs loh! *SMACKS* haha

Anyway it's set. Next Sat gonna meet Meix2, Ade, Yunya & SC to the NTUC to buy ingredients to cook dinner at Meix2's house, then go watch '大喜事'

On Valentine's day, (geez i hate this fucked up day) PROBABLY gonna meet Lefay, Danny & maybe Ah Kiong to cook something up to. Nabeei, single life sucks TSK!

Gonna be tiring & broke after this. I need ANGBAOS to save me~!!


*I already saved around $7 for missing you.*
Serves me right. Stop thinking of him lah Arvel!!

Meet Gerald yesterday for dinner. Ate 'Dian Xin' at Geylang area.



I thought it wasn't fulling since we ordered only a little bit. But after finishing everything, i'm kinda full hah.

Went Tanjong Pagar to meet Ghee Kiong, Danny & Casper after that. Tgt we went to visit my aunt again. This is the mini/budget hostel she & uncle started for tourists.



(I finally remember to take pics haha)
Cozy right?! <3
p/s- & it's super near to PLAY lol

Saw Imran yesterday too. Anyway Danny & ah Kiong, please start your blogs ASAP la! I'm bored reading non-funny entries by others. Sibei sianzation de k. -.-



Sorry my friends. I will try not to be so emo over here in my blog haha. *Group hug!* LOL

Was looking thru my stuffs & saw these works i did when i was in ITE.

Photoshop works:





Drawings:

I hate to be crying almost every night. It's really becoming tiring.. I can't bring myself to hate you. I hate myself more.

Casper still sick, so plans cancelled. =( Get well soon la! TSK! -.-

LOL


How i wish god can help me smack those idiots who block up pathways/entrances/escalator etc. Going back from camp at around 5plus to 6 plus always makes my blood boiled. I hate crowds.




P/S: Asking your friend to return me the stuffs was unnecessary. Actually, i was hoping to keep just one of them just for remembrance purpose, & was kinda wishful to think you gonna keep the other one. But then you wanted him to return both of them.. hmm, let me quote from him: "he want me to pass something bad to you."

Makes me sick. If that thing consider bad or whatever shit, fine. Throw away. No point of keeping it since you don't even want it. Probably too ugly to keep in your room anyway. I even feel a tint of regret giving them to you. BLAH!

Fishing tomorrow! LOL gonna be fun =p Even if there isn't any fishes available, it still gonna be fun la haha.

Anyway, get well soon GHEE KIONG!!!

k I've mention you le =p Happy? LOL


But seriously, do take care la =)


Oh Casper you also sick right? Tsk! Get well ASAP k. Tmr fishing day hor! lol!

That is bad. Real bad. I feel for you. =( Sorry to hear. Hope you gonna be okie & that asshole better shut his mouth.

1.) Being a Prefect for a short period of time, & quit because i don't like it.

It totally sucks. The prefect tie sucks, the responsibility sucks more.

2.) Picked up smoking at my Godmother's house.

Yea yea smoking is bad etc etc. I know, all smokers know. Stop bitching about it.

3.) Steals from stores with my Godmother/gang, & was caught.

Haha, thank god they didn't called the police but the security instead. I know i'm wrong, sorry & i won't do it again~! >.<

4.) Came in 1ST in the writing composition.

I was awarded 3rd prize on stage, because of that stupid principle, who presented the prizes made a mistake. After that thingy ended, a guy came up to us & asked the winner to pass the 1st prize to me because afterall, I'm the rightful winner. Haha. Sibei shiok to see the unbelieveable look on the guy who needed to part away with the prize. (which is some bookstore vouchers)

5.) Called my teacher a bitch.

Not my fault. The teacher totally deserves it because she told my friend not to hang out with me. The reason? Because i'm bad at math & she is a math teacher. That no good BITCH!

6.) Made another teacher angry.

Well, this is my fault actually. She was like teaching & i just don't understand what is she talking about, so i said 'WHAT THE HELL' out loud... She did replied 'I'M THE HELL' tho. =/

7.) Slapped my crush.

I was punished by the teacher to stand at the back of the class or something. My secret crush then took out my belongings from my bag & showed it to everyone in class. After the teacher left, i was so embarrassed, hurt & angry at the same time that i slap him in front everyone. He was probably shocked & pissed. Well, i did apologise & asked him whether if it hurts, & he was like 'YA LAH!' -.- LOL

8.) Slapped my classmate.

He took my CD & hide it somewhere, & even challenged me to smack him. So yea.. I did & all hell break loose. LOL. But people was pulling us apart so nothing serious happen.

9.) Play truant.

When the bell rings & it's assembly time, (which we could hear miles away from the sch) I will stop making my way to sch & make a U-turn to go back home to slp.

10.) Played wrestling in class/basketball court.

Yea, we loved it haha.

Another spring cleaning wonder!

Found the shelf i made during my sec sch days during DNT class. Fugly la i know. Even the teachers agreed & gave me a C or something LOL. Blah!

Sometimes we just can't trust moms with our stuffs.

Yesterday, my mom was doing spring cleaning, she took out my old laptop bag & said she want to throw it away. Luckily, i open it up to check the items, or else my 'O' level cert gonna end up in the incinerator. -.- And she wasn't even apologetic! She's like mumbling away & shrug me off, pretending to be busy. LMAOOOO Funny la~


I feel like eating $5 Orh Jian now. =(


I've deleted our photos in my hp, except two of them. Maybe few more months later I might try to delete them again.. If i could that is. I guess you doesn't have this prob. Cause in the first place, you never have my pics in your phone...

*Adds a dollar*

Talked about CNY plans with Ade & Meix2. Yaaay, we are goin to her house the week after CNY to cook! xD Gonna be so fun as each of us is going to cook one/two dishes haha. Thinking about this is already making me hungry. VERY. So total there's gonna be like 5 different dishes for that day ^.^

Gonna watch 大喜事 too. Support Fann, support local movies k ppl~

& Gerald, you promised that you will pay for my expenses if we go HongKong or Taiwan for holiday de arh, you said I only need to pay for my plane ticket hor. ON le k, i never force you hor hehe =P Either late May or early June... Hmm i need to try to save up like now.

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

Sorry frenz. Too emo to go PLAY with you guys today. Maybe next time? I just don't have the mood to party today. I just wanna go out & have a quiet chat session with a fren or two. Might meet Adeline later after her work.

Anyway my dad bought Strawberries! I'm surprise, because strawberries is so not the kinda fruit he buys =/



Anyway one of the ways to overcome my emo-ing is to, yes you are correct...

CAMWHORING!







Alright. I'm feeling a little bit better already. I should try not to be such a emo little bitch. I hate to be like this. *Fine myself a dollar for thinking of him*

TSK! If this goes on, i will be broke in no time!

Like always, cab drivers are dumb,(Well, most of them lah) or they are just acting dumb to piss off passengers. I was on the SMRT cab yesterday, & the uncle kinda use the wrong route, which cause me to almost wanting to slap the back of his head. And yes, he did use his hp while driving. That blarrrrdy idiot. -.-

And anyway since Bus drivers are getting younger & hotter, why not the cabs drivers too? Or the cleaners, libarians, hawkers etc.... Hahaha

Whenever i think of you,
我就把一块钱存起来。
At the end of the month,
我会把钱那出来,
& buy something.
就当这是你买给我的礼物。。。

原来醒不了的美梦，也算是一种恶梦。。

ZQ arh ZQ, stop lying to urself okay? Deep down u know it's a lie. You might just be a spare tire. Time to wake up le. We are always talking about this topic, & I almost vomit blood trying to talk you outta this shit. -.-








& why when people wanna meet me, they wanna have sex? I'm so dirrrrty. So very dirrrty... At least i still care abt this... One fine day i might not, & i don't even wanna think what's gonna happen after that...

Went Daniel's house for dinner yesterday. I do like the black pepper Salmon & whatever duck that is tho lol. The next morning ate breakfast at LJ silver. Never know that their breakfast is so tasty. But Mac's breakfast still rulez lah haha

Bought some CNY clothes. Not nice at all, i just bought it for the sake of buying something new for CNY. 2 T-shirts which cost $10. Yea haha. Whatever i don't care.

Why do some people thinks that i can find someone & get attach fast? I don't think i can. & after the time management probs with previous ppl, I realise i need to find a loner to be with. Yes, a cute loner who loves to stay at home, so i can rot with him, cook for him, shower with him, went to the beach tgt with him, play com games with him, watch movies with him, joke with him, holidays with him, tease him, & most importantly, hug to sleep! HAHA ^.^

Anyway, i'm currently quite relax about this lovey thingy, i'm in no hurry. NS is still in between my fucking way. And it's kinda unfair to others since i still need more time to get over something. Oh well, like i said, maybe i'll focus on building up the hatred, so it might get me to forget it faster. Unhealthy.. but yea, that's still a way lol. We shall see.

Met Adeline & S.C, & this is what we ate:

SHARK FIN SOUP!!!

But from Pasam Malam tho =P haha

Oily junk food! <3

Went to AMK area with Casper & Danny, but couldn't find the CNY clothes that i wanted. Sianzz.. -.-
Chor Chor then come to meet us for a while, & we ate Tau Huay at the nearby Hawker Centre. He's gonna start teaching soon, cool right?! Can't wait to hear stories about how sec sch students stressing him up LOL =P Kidding~ But he should know better than to teach a sec sch, it's a living hell. All the best & I hope that you can age beautifully, not like the other teachers who wrinkled up after all the stress lol

After that went PLAY with only Casper & Danny, but their friends turn up to join in. Us, being cheapo & thinking $15 of entrance fee is too much, manage to get in free by coming super early haha. One of Casper's even asked why am I allow to get in, cause i look underage -.- loL


Super empty since it was early >.<

Tiring! zzz... my legs are aching from all that dancing. And when we decided to go home, they manage to play a list of hits that we love, so bo bian, stayed a little longer.

I'm probably gonna stay home tmr to watch Avatar for the whole day & rest for Monday's camp nightmare. Argh~!

Im at home now walking around in my undies & no one gives a damn. -.-''
(Not that i want any family members to give a damn la, but at least they can ask me to wear something instead of keeping quiet? Oh well loL)

K meeting Casper & maybe Danny later at AMK. Shopping time!! ^.^

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...


Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Met Daniel yesterday, ate Swensens. I had Salmon & Mushroom pasta (It's not very nice tho) & he ate Baked rice. Thanks for the Banana boat ice-cream arh ^.^

I can't believe i forgot to take pics. Blah.


Bad news, we are probably gonna start staying in. Nabeei them. But then again I don't like to go out on weekdays so i'm probably gonna be fine with it. But my poor laptop gonna be lonely till i come back during weekends. *Sayang*

I'm so gonna miss internet too.


Might be meeting Casper later. I wanna buy New Year clothes & DOMO KUN! <3

Just cut my hair again today. Super short. I dunno how to go out this weekend without looking like a silly goose. -.-


I love the fresh morning air, but i do love my daily doses of cigarettes too.

To: My Dear 'Bastard',

I dunno if you gonna read my blog or not, but anyway..

If you already let go of that someone because he is not ready, then just do it & move on. Do NOT worry about how he is doing or how he is feeling right now, because he is the one who put you on hold in the first place. If he doesn't care enough for your feelings before that, why bother about him now after you left? Seriously.

Do not think that he will be crying for you, or will be missing you in anyway. Nothing is gonna change no matter how hard you think of him & only you will gonna be feeling more miserable as days goes by. (Believe me, that's true lol) Just try your best bastard, when you start to miss him, think how sucky he is to be making you feel like shit. Tada! You gonna feel a little pissed off, then everything is gonna be a little better haha. Lets try it tgt someday =P.

Anyway, there is totally no such thing as not ready for love. Because there isn't any time where you can be ready for love. Love just happens when u are least expected.

So yea.. when he is saying that he is not ready/not romantic/no mood, it's all..

BULLSHIT.

Do you think that if he found someone he truly loves, he wouldn't try his best & go all the way just to be with him, no matter what comes in between them? Do you think that if he found someone he truly loves, he wouldn't place him as no. 1 in his heart? Do you think if he found someone he truly loves, he wouldn't want to spend his avail time with him & try to make him happy? Most importantly, do you think he's gonna care about anything or wait till he is READY if you are the one he truly loves?

So conclusion, he doesn't love you enough. Full Stop.

Move on,Bastard. Don't hope he's gonna ask you back because he is not. You have cried enough. You deserve better.


Sign off,
Arvel

Watched 'Bedtime Stories.' Quite nice lah haha. After that manage to catch a bus home. Thanks Gerald for so being so Wu liao accompany me to take bus k? LOL

They gave us a poster of the Movie: Red Cliff 2 when we buy the Popcorn & drink.



=/

I'm so not gonna put it up on the wall. Who wants it anyway? LOL


& Yaay! Tmr duty again -.-

I'm so sick of MSN these days. There is absolutely nothing to do over there, just endless & meaningless teasings which leads to nowhere. Conversations always repeat themselves like: How are you? How's life? Watcha doing now?

And i'll always gave the same answer, I'm fine, Okie loh, Nothing much, u?

Then, <Insert Random Chats/lols & hahas>

& it always ends with: Ttyl, Take Care, bye, Cya etc

-.-

Well, anyway..

I slept a lot during yesterday's duty. Charcoal accompanyed me too, (The black cat who stays in the camp lol) since she jumped up the bed & slp beside me. But i was waken up by her Meow-ing, & was kinda pissed off cause i'm still a little tired. So i shooed her outside, which she stay & cried pitifully at the door. LOL.

I also manage to sneak online for a while, & was quickly bored. Blah-ness!

Nothing much about my boring, fucked up life for yesterday & today. Might be meeting Gerald later for movies.. On a weekday somemore. I must be outta my mind since tmr is a working day.. >.<

I have a good mind of blocking those people who ask me the 1st thing when they talk to me: You Horny?

Hello?! That's very kind of you to be showing concern arh, thanks but no thanks! Whether I'm horny or not is totally non of all of your businesses can?! Stupid little bastards. So what if I'm horny? Does that means you can do something to me? Or i'm gonna do something to you that is? PI LA HOR!

D.I.Y LOL!

Haha Ashley told me that at the last step of the stairs to the lower deck, is where they installed the sensor at! =D

So next time, we just need to skip the last step to make it seems like there are still lots of ppl on the upper deck, or we can like step on it 98328798723094809 times to maybe make the whole system haywire? Muhahahaha!

-.-

Yaay my bro fixed the stupid keyboard =D

Anyway i do think i'm a little Sua Ku, I just noticed it yesterday that those double deck buses indicates the no. of seats still avaliable at the upper decks. Uber cool huh?!! I wonder is it because that there are sensors on the seats so they manage to know (Tho it's kinda too OTT & expensive to install that shit dun you think?) , or they employ some creepy/weird person to hide at the corner/back & count the passengers at the upper decks, then type it inside the computer thingy to showcase the no. of seats avaliable to the others at the lower decks.. (I keep turning back to see if that's the case but the seats are all empty)


I sounds crazy =/ But then there's nothing more to do in bus anyway.



& Gerald, you are hungry right?



SEE, my Nya Nya cook Maggie Mee for moi ^.^

DROOL ba you cow =P

Dear Daniel,

Thanks for trying so hard to cheer me up. =) I really appreciated it. So nice can? Haha I know it's not the end of the world, but it's almost like the end of MY world =p
Haha. Keep up with your drawings & I might cheer up more kays? LOL


PS: If you ever fall a slp again while chatting with me halfway thru MSN, I'm so gonna take a train down Yishun & kick your Vampire ass. ^.^ HAHA

Yours Truly,
Arvel



Meet up with Su & Nad just now at Tamps. Haha quite enjoyable. Before we left to catch the last train, we told Su in a serious voice, not to look back when she is on the way home because ghosts are following behind her. She was so pissed & scared that she refused to wave us goodbyes. Muhahaha! =P

K la, small little bit of enjoyment today & hope it can last me till tmr~ ^.^


Nabeeei, my 'Enter' keyboard drop out -.-''

My heart hurts so much that everything feels numb. Bad things comes to me so frequently that it starts to seem right now, like i deserve it in a way, like i knew things gonna turn out shitty & learn to accept it. No matter how hard i try, or how much i put in to change the situations, it always turns out the same. BAD.

Same shit, just different days. So true. Maybe it's time to resign to fate? I do feel i'm caring lesser & lesser now, getting ruder to people & becoming more nasty. News like deaths doesn't affect me as much now.. Totally non of my business. Smses are getting shorter & so are the conversations with friends/family/etc. I doesn't feel like talking/entertaining anymore. My heart just become emptier/bitter as days goes by.


Happiness are just temporaries highs in my opinion, all good things DOES comes to an end. I rather stay unhappy forever from now on rather than people giving me the sudden surge of hope, then break me into little pieces afterwards, plurging me into darkness & left me to rot.

Silly hyper Daniel drew this HAHA -.-


And shortly after he read my blog....




-____-

Last day of 2008 & i was stuck in camp. I'm fine with that actually since there is no one to celeb with me, & nothing much worth celebrating anyway. Countdown to a New, lonely 2009? Blah no thanks. Text a few people 'Happy New Year' & went to bed. Dreamt of someone, which made me depressed once again.

How i wish i never know you, you made me realise that how actually I can be so unimportant in someone's life. To you, I'm just a whore who wanted sex, someone who takes up all your time with your friends & family, I'm some type of human accesories to hang around when you are out with your friends, someone who is not even worth to be with even for a day alone together. I never realise how terrible or unworthy I am as a human before i got to know you.

I do feel like shit. Seriously. You don't even care, you don't feel anything. Cause I'm totally unimportant & i'm probably stupid if i think otherwise. Haha *shrugs*. Whatever.

How i wish i can forget you quickly. How i wish i can lost this part of the memories. How i wish i can convince myself that I'm actually worth something to someone.

I have a good mind of disappearing from everyone you know, breaking off all contacts so that i can really move on. Maybe I'll do it... Yes, I'm so going to do it. Maybe I'm going to close this blog, or set it to private. Since my life is a mess, no point of sharing it with everyone. I dunno. I don't feel like waking up forever.